To Those Who Question My Faith

Currently, I am undergoing in an identity crisis. Identity denotative description is " The distinct personality of an individual regarded as a persisting entity; individuality." It is not the confusion of preference but a confusion of who i really is. A search of truth, my nature, who made me and how i suppose to live. As the word identity defined, I am finding my individuality. Right now, i don't give regards into religion, atheism, mores and norms. It is only me. ABOUT ME.

My close friends know that i am a late bloomer. Since my birth, i can say it with conviction that I strictly observe and follow the rules. It is in college that I become open about having a girlfriend, sex, drugs, political issues, kaJOLOGan, cheating, pregnancy, and different issues that i must know when i am in high school. It is just now that I began to watch porn, experience lustful desires, vices, etc. . It is just now that i began to see the real world.I am not living for my self, but i am living for my family, friends and our God. I am happy-go-lucky, do not experience so much struggles, always look at life in a positive manner. And now, I had decided to explore the world i am living. As I always say, " I cannot appreciate light if I do not know what it feels in the dark."

I cannot shout praise GOD, glory be to Him, You reign on High when I know that i am not okay. If I do that at the stage that i am in a confusion, I am not giving Him praise, but i am giving Him shame. I am not stepping out of what i believe. And soon when I am weary and tired, surely i will come back to Him.

I cant afford to be a hypocrite. That is the worst thing I will do. I LOVE GOD, and I do not want to put His name in vain.

Please pray for my wellness.



THANK YOU!


A bit of my thoughts?:

Praising GOD is not a fashion, it is a passion.
Not an accessory to be worn, but a lifestyle.

God is not a scapegoat: To be with Him during depression and walking out in faith when prosperity achieved.

Praising Him is not for relaxation, but for a earnest devotion.



Many say it is not about religion, It's about the relationship.

BUt I think, it is better to state it this way,

It is not about what's in, it is about authenticity of feelings.