Model: Ria Garcia
"Love makes you smile then makes you cry. Love inspires then confuses. Love makes you care then leads you to hate. And yet, it's only love that can ease the pain and help you move on once again." -a text message
tor.pe- an spanish adjective. synonymous to awkward, clumsy, stupid, dull-witted. - that is the denotative definition of the word torpe. But connotatively, we use this word to describe people who are afraid to confess their feelings to the one they love due to an specific or innumerable reason. But whatever the reasons may be, the word ' afraid' can surely be seen on the list. Afraid of getting hurt, afraid of rejection, afraid of commitment, afraid of something that cannot be seen. Yes, fear makes people stagnant. But behind the word afraid, there are reasonable reasons which surely makes you understand why such 'torpe' people exist.
Fear is everyone's weakness. But as my friend wisely stated, 'courage arises when there is fear. If there's no fear, courage does not exist at all.' The primary reason why these torpe people exist because of fear. But how does these fear arises? These fear arises because of the same reason why we must have courage, LOVE. It is love of hurting their selves and hurting someone they love that they choose to keep silent despite of the big need of to care and be cared. It is a big sacrifice for those people to be dormant. the 'what-ifs' and the 'can i' are always on their mind. What if I done that? What if I cant meet her expectations? What if I am not the one for her? Can i give what she want? Can i be her knight her and shining armor? Can i be the one? A smile of a torpe lies many questions that, unfortunately, sometimes remain unanswered forever. Also, the fear of de Javu - that something happens in the past might happen again. People who valued someone (to the point that they lose the value of themselves) and lost them afraid that history might repeat itself. It is the hurt of the past that makes the fear arise. Either whose fault, separation is painful. It is love of oneself that he don't want it to happen again. It is masochism to let the same pain hurt you again.
Thinking what's the best for the one they love. These people think that they are not enough to the one they love. They have high respect to that person to the point that the insecurities started to blow their minds. Some of them strive to be worthy of the prize while most, unfortunately, just let the chances pass. It is not because they are wimp, but it is because up to the most unreasonable thought, they choose to let that person happy. They choose to give the best to that one - that they are willing to sacrifice their own happiness for the happiness of another. Love is setting other free.
The knowledge of right and wrong. "How could something so wrong feels so right all along?" Sometimes people are blinded by what they feel. But some of these torpe people who maybe refuse to live with the norms (or living with the norms), wait for the right time, and right situation until they realize that the right time and right situation already passes by.
Diamonds are roughly made. It is a choice on how we respond to the situation. Torpe is not a negative term at all. Good reasons lies behind that cruel 5-letter word. It is not always fear, but lack of courage. Fear is unreasonable but lack of courage have a basis - a decision chosen. I still believe that when you love, you say it. But as a former torpe, I understand their side. Again, fear and lack of courage make us stagnant. The what ifs of being with someone soon becomes what if i told her? Results may be good or bad. Either way, at least you are able to practice your right of expression. Be not a communist of yourself. Life is too short to be filled with regrets.
thank you for reading.
LUvyah!
Fear is everyone's weakness. But as my friend wisely stated, 'courage arises when there is fear. If there's no fear, courage does not exist at all.' The primary reason why these torpe people exist because of fear. But how does these fear arises? These fear arises because of the same reason why we must have courage, LOVE. It is love of hurting their selves and hurting someone they love that they choose to keep silent despite of the big need of to care and be cared. It is a big sacrifice for those people to be dormant. the 'what-ifs' and the 'can i' are always on their mind. What if I done that? What if I cant meet her expectations? What if I am not the one for her? Can i give what she want? Can i be her knight her and shining armor? Can i be the one? A smile of a torpe lies many questions that, unfortunately, sometimes remain unanswered forever. Also, the fear of de Javu - that something happens in the past might happen again. People who valued someone (to the point that they lose the value of themselves) and lost them afraid that history might repeat itself. It is the hurt of the past that makes the fear arise. Either whose fault, separation is painful. It is love of oneself that he don't want it to happen again. It is masochism to let the same pain hurt you again.
Thinking what's the best for the one they love. These people think that they are not enough to the one they love. They have high respect to that person to the point that the insecurities started to blow their minds. Some of them strive to be worthy of the prize while most, unfortunately, just let the chances pass. It is not because they are wimp, but it is because up to the most unreasonable thought, they choose to let that person happy. They choose to give the best to that one - that they are willing to sacrifice their own happiness for the happiness of another. Love is setting other free.
The knowledge of right and wrong. "How could something so wrong feels so right all along?" Sometimes people are blinded by what they feel. But some of these torpe people who maybe refuse to live with the norms (or living with the norms), wait for the right time, and right situation until they realize that the right time and right situation already passes by.
Diamonds are roughly made. It is a choice on how we respond to the situation. Torpe is not a negative term at all. Good reasons lies behind that cruel 5-letter word. It is not always fear, but lack of courage. Fear is unreasonable but lack of courage have a basis - a decision chosen. I still believe that when you love, you say it. But as a former torpe, I understand their side. Again, fear and lack of courage make us stagnant. The what ifs of being with someone soon becomes what if i told her? Results may be good or bad. Either way, at least you are able to practice your right of expression. Be not a communist of yourself. Life is too short to be filled with regrets.
thank you for reading.
LUvyah!
-So close, yet so far...
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